Hey my friends .3.
as some of you allready know, my operation appointment was cancelled and pushed back to end of august or september.
My tooth hurts like hell and the medication does not really help.
I try to work on the commissions and customs as hard as I can - the problem is: my health.
A lot of you noticed that I went to bed at 10 pm for nearly the last two weeks.
I wake up at 7 am, trying to force myself to get out of bed and most of the time when I'm awake, I'm not really productive.
Here are the reasons:
- I have headaches for most of the day (which is why I go to bed that early - yes 10 pm is freaking early for me)
- the Infectious mononucleosis was diagnosed to be cronic, i feel dizzy from time to time, not being able to walk, or stand than -
I get sudden feaver and start to sweat pretty badly, till i have to lay down. After one or two hours of sleep, I feel a little
better, even though my body feels weak as hell, like I have weights on my shoulders that push me down
(when I'm not online and noone hears from me, this is the reason why, I sometimes just stay in bed and rest)
- the condition with my teeth remain the same, the left one is broken in half, the right one seems to be more stable -
I'm scared of eating, since my left tooth broke during dinner, I have to be carefull what I eat
- I still have problems with my left foot, I can't walk properly and it seems to swell again from time to time
( I had a little accident and one of the metatarsus (?) keeps on pushing on an artery - nothing too bad, just hurts)
- I have a part time art block (Explenation: I try to work on something, make the sketch somehow likable, leave it for days
cause I'm not able to get anything right, stop drawing for days and than somehow finish the sketch loving it)
- I support my family all day - They got back from vacation earlier because my mother didn't felt well - the temperature and
all these sudden weather changes are not good for her. As most of you know my parents have diabetes and heart problems.
With all those medications they have to take, their bodys got pretty weak for stuff like that. My fathers condition isn't getting
better eather. He has to go to the clinic again after the next two weeks - he gets weaker every day even though he tries to hide it
- my nerves are shattered - even though I try my best to somehow support my family, our relationship is pretty...well... fucked up
(eg. I can bring them coffe and turn on the fan, clean the dishes and cook, and they are happy - five minutes later my mum gets
into the livingroom and the pillos don't lay where they were when she left and hell is breaking upon me )
- my dog seems to get a little better, still she needs a lot of attention - she is very clingy aspecially after she went on vacation with
my parents, I can't even leave the room without her sticking to my leg. When I sit down on the floor (cause the couch is too small
she appears from nowhere and suddenly sits on my lap oO)
well these are the...biggest (?) reasons for my on-off-inactivity .3. I just wanted to inform you all, so you know what I've been up to
thinking about all this stuff really makes me sick and there is no minute i don't think about it.
I really hope this all gets better someday... feeling so helpless with all this shit makes me sick...and the fact that I don't
eben have the chance to pay attention to my friends, doesn't makes anything better...
Well this was what i wanted to tell you all, but there is a little bright side of this journal like the title saysIT'S FEATURE TIME AGAIN!!first feature of the day is <3
her style is simply adorable x3 I just love the way she make those eyes shine x3
You should really check her out, her commission and adoptable prices are pretty cheap
for that kind of quality :3 so please give her a watchsecond feature of the day is the lovely
I got this amazing adopt from her x3 serioisly
this girl is freaking awesome!and not just her adopts are awesome as hell, NO!
In every piece of work is a freaking amazing amount of detail and love! Go check her out!
She's ine of my new idols
simply because she is awesome!!!and the third feature will be
seriously simply awesome! I love the soft shading and these effects x3 just awesome!
please go and check it out, this person deserves a lot of attention <3
so this was it for today...this journal seriously took me half a day to write cause I had to lay down while writing
it feels like my head is going to explode.
well but thats it~
love you all!